A Quarter Life Crisis

I've been hesitant to post this...it's the infamous post about The Spaniard. I promised so here it is people. El es un muy guapo hombre! Thank you I know a little espanol. Enough not to get lost in some janky Mexican city and end up bare ass on a jail floor....off topic a bit but you get my drift.

Soooooo, The Spaniard is more than a pretty face and well he really is The Spaniard by default since he was born in a little obscure country off the northeast coast of Africa called Tunisia. That would make him Tunisian by all accounts but I’m all about consistency around these parts and since I learned (or listened better) this after my first post about him and already named him The Spaniard, it is what it is.

Long story incredibly short he was born and lived a little in Tunisia but was raised most of his life in Spain. Digressing!

Anywho, I’m off the market. Not by choice either and it feels like a little part of me curled up and died to no longer say ....I’m single. Should this affect my facebook status? I fought the good fight though but in the end The Spaniard called my bluff during random conversation he was like you’re my girl right.

Way to blind spot me buddy we weren’t talking relationship. I didn’t react immediately which is never a good sign. I mean I like him more than the other gents I was (past tense) seeing but relationships/commitments aren’t my forte.

Peculiar spot that rock and a hard place with very little time to analyze an answer I just said of course. Of course, fate sealed. Ohhhhh I watched, writhing in pain might I add, my freedom sink to the bottom of the sea never to be seen by the light of day.

And really it's a shame, the summer is coming (I have a bit of a sweet tooth) and I’m gonna try with all my might to resist the delectable candy before me but there really are no guarantees. Wilde said it best, I can resist anything but temptation. If this were the winter I’d handle this a bit better but oh God the flesh is weak.

Nurse Friend posed the question how could I possibly consider traveling with this person across seas if I wasn’t gonna give it a true go? Easy, it’s called free excursion to Spain which is pretty much the travelgasm of all vacations to me. If I never mentioned it before I’ve always wanted to go to Spain. I missed out on an awesome opportunity during school due to fear (other students not me) for traveling shortly after 9-11.

All jokes aside though, she’s right (no one mention that to her). Especially since The Spaniard wants to intro me to all the relatives…but as I’ve mentioned before relatives heart me except that one granny and well I really can’t blame her for that one. To go under false pretenses would be incredibly insensitive on my part. I do like him folks, don’t get me wrong but I have my daddy’s blood cycling through my veins and commitment/relationships require a non wandering eye with a touch of emotional vulnerability that I’m not sure I possess.

What am I to do folks.....did I mention the summer is coming?